Bipolar Depression I and Shelter in Place – March 30, 2020

I don’t talk much about my Bipolar Depression on my blog. Specifically, it’s Type I, mixed states, ultra ultra rapid cycling. Ultra ultra rapid cycling can occur a lot more often than rapid cycling and ultra rapid cycling. On a bad day, I can have multiple hypermanic episodes that happen with severe depression episodes.

Years ago, I had a new therapist, don’t recall the first session, but she mentioned it in the second session. Therapist sessions tend to be billed hourly, but only run 45 – 50 minutes long. During my first session, she estimated I changed subjects at least 10 times minimum. She couldn’t keep me on topic for long. It’s draining for me when I am that manic. 

There are two types of people when it comes to manic – those who love it and those who hate it. Basic rule is the more manic you get, the deeper the depression rebound effect.

I re-blogged this ~What Does A Bipolar Manic Episode Feel Like~Bipolar Mania~ — Bipolar Tapestry~Poetic Thoughts. I also mentioned each person’s symptoms can be significantly different. With hypomania (low grade mania), I am very productive. As it inches closer to hypermania (full blown mania), my productivity drops substantially as I start too many things and don’t finish any of them. 

Currently, I am neutral or normal, but the shelter in place is starting to get me down. It’s not a full blown depression episode yet. I am doing good about keeping it from becoming one as being stuck in a hospital right now would be a non-fun event at best.

Shelter in place can be hard for those with mental health issues. I get out at least one time/day to avoid or reduce cabin fever.


About ICT Genealogist

Originally from Gulfport, Mississippi. Live in Wichita, Kansas now. I suffer Bipolar I, ultra-ultra rapid cycling, mixed episodes. Blog on a variety of topics - genealogy, DNA, mental health, among others. Let's
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13 Responses to Bipolar Depression I and Shelter in Place – March 30, 2020

  1. Thanks for explaining. I find other people’s experiences enlightening to my own perspective and mental health issues.

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    • You are welcome. I find sharing is sometimes helpful. Had people in person comment they did not realize I suffer bipolar. Had others with mental health issues who asked why I share and I say to reduce the stigma.

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      • Same here, and to help others.

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      • Helping others is a big reason. One day I will share how I got kicked out of a psych hospital while actively suicidal. The shrink knew I was suicidal when he made the call.

        It wasn’t funny at the time, but it became funny later as I realized how it could have turned out if they had not scheduled an appointment with my therapist for later in the day. I wasn’t privy to the conversation she had with the hospital, but someone she talked to understood how bad it could turn out.


  2. SLIMJIM says:

    Wow I didn’t know that; praying for you for this time; are you guys are on quarantine in your state like it is in California?

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    • We were. The governor lifted some of the restrictions recently, with more to be lifted soon. My county made the unwise decision to lift all restrictions yesterday, including not requiring social distancing. I will continue with social distancing and I believe my favorite cafe will do the same as will many other places. No doubt many places will remove all restrictions in the county, but time will tell if that was a smart decision on our county commissioners’ part.

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      • SLIMJIM says:

        Will be praying for that; here in Los Angeles its probably not going away soon.

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      • Did a post today about it ending here. The County took an approach of not enforcing violators who ignore the governor’s orders. Seen enough people breaking it when shelter in place was the norm as law enforcement had been told not to enforce it. Time will tell if not enforcing it was the right or wrong decision. We do have the advantage of having a lot fewer cases than other parts of the state that were late to the party on doing shelter in place.

        I think many here are doing what needs to be done, but there are always those who push the limits. I saw a YouTube pastor who made a point about how it was a good move to limit exposure.

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      • Thank you. I am praying for your area as well and for other places, like Brazil where it’s running rampant right now. If Brazil doesn’t implement something, the deaths could easily match or exceed our deaths in the next couple of months.

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      • SLIMJIM says:

        Wow just found out about Brazil through you

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      • I didn’t read the article on why the President banned most trips from Brazil, but I saw an article in my least favorite search engine about how the President of Brazil was taking a hands off approach to COVID-19 and how bad it’s getting down there.

        I think some common sense needs to prevail. That’s why I did the shelter in place before the county initiated it. I am still mostly following the shelter in place as much as possible.

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      • SLIMJIM says:

        I think common sense practice by the people is what it boils down to. Hence some country with lax laws are low because of their social and individual ways of precaution and what to do when one is sick, social distancing, etc

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